Giving up control

I'm going to hit on a sore subject for me tonight. One of the hardest commands I've had to swallow found in the Bible is about the duties of a wife. Now I love my husband and I'll do just about anything for him, but as he says, I kind of like to wear the pants. So when my Sunday school class touched on the foundations and stipulations of marriage, I cringed a little. Ephesians 5:22 says, "Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord." Then verse 24 goes on to say, "Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing."

I have a hard time with this because my pride tells me that I am right. I don't like to tell my husband that he is right and that I'll do what he says. I'm pretty sure I know better than him, or at least that's what I tell myself. You can see why this is so hard from me. 

Even when I walked into my Sunday school class the day of this lesson, I'd convinced myself that this surely didn't apply to all women, especially in this day. I let my pride take control of me and my marriage and it costs me. Rox and I fight more when I don't go with what he thinks is right for the family. At the very least I need to work on giving in and listening to his ideas. Not only does it make me stubborn and argumentative, but he gets the feeling like he isn't good enough, smart enough, man enough to lead our family. I am saddened that I could ever make him feel this way. 

I am working on my attitude and control issues. After all, Proverbs 16:18 says, "Pride goeth before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall." I don't want to destroy my marriage because I had too much pride to listen to my husband and follow his lead.

God, once again, thank you for your excellence guidance that you have given to us in your word. Help us read your word and understand your messages so we can be more like you. Give us the strength to change our ways when we error. Bless us Lord, as we strive to do your will. We give you all of the praise for the success we have on this earth and anticipate the day we get to spend eternity in your presence. Amen.